you know what, giving me money really wont make me stick to my curfew. (although i vaugely remember this morning shouting at you, telling you no i am not gonna give a damn about the curfew) or rather, i know you care. but please, learn to show your concern in a different way?

and why do you all give me money whenever something goes wrong. its getting a little bit irritating. i cant be bought you know. i am a (mature and sensible *hahaha) 18 year old girl. and i dont need all your money. i have my own money. but well, if you really want to give me more.. by all means go ahead.

haiyah okay. i will make an effort to go to school more often if it makes you all happier. growls.

ive got no work this entire week except on the weekends!!!! i need to pack my room! the bags of bday/xmas gifts are STILL in the corner.

i love you, yet at times i hate you.
i hate you, yet at times i love you.

i am the world's greatest slacker i swear.

i still want my cigs. but i am feeling a lil too lazy to get my ass opp to get cigs. and the thought of going to the plaza in my slping clothes is so................... scary. everytime i wear my slp-ing clothes down, i am sure to see someone i know.

anyway. my whole body is still aching.
i think it was from soccer yesterday.
either that or clubbing on wednesday.

should i do a hair show in feb and allow my hair to be bleached AGAIN?

agggh. i wanna get outta the house.
i so need a cig. and i dont have any! dammit.

oh yayy daphne has a curfew now.
why? because her freaking eldest brother decided that she has been having too many late nights and decided to impose a 11pm curfew on her.

but you know what? i really dont care.
i havent had a curfew in the past 2 years. and now you want to impose one on me? thats insanity.

and then when i woke up, i had a lovely 1 hour conversation with my dad. the usual crap. lovely? my ass.

and i think everyone at home knows that i smoke.
i really dont know how they found out but owell. heck.

and i have irritating people calling me when im slping just to ask me about phones. fuck? aghhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!

stupid 31st jan. now i dont feel happy being 11 months away from nineteen already. BAHH.

yayyy the ditzys played soccer today!!! :) damn hot lah, the weather.

i woke up at 7 this morning for macs breakfast with eve and im still awake! waiting for beks to come over my place, cos the clever ditz went home and realised that she didnt bring her house keys out.

oh wait.. beks is here already. and we are both wearing white teeshirts. ha ha ha ha!!

work today was sucky. :( no lah. i think it was just the lack of sleep.

and someone won the $8888 already. a malay young woman. lucky her. grrrowls.

you know what... i am 18 years and a month old. 11 more months to being 19. blarghs!

ohyah. anyone wants to buy nokia 3120? blue. unfilled warranty card. good condition. $140 only. tri band phone with mms. gprs. java enabled games. sms/call me. thankk you!

you know what!!!!! the ticket for the grand prize of $8888 is in the lucky draw box at m1 shop westmall!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i serve the funniest customers. you see, now with every upgrade/newline trans.. the cust will get to pick a lucky draw ticket from the box. its a sure win thing.

1 rooster (or rather.... sometimes we say.. one cock.) gets u 2 sets of poker cards.
2 roosters, gcc calling card.
3 roosters, $38 m1 shop voucher.
4 roosters, some very nice gambling game kit.
5 roosters, abalone and buddha jump over the wall. valued at $100+
6 roosters, $8888!!! (THE ONLY ONE IS IN m1 shop WESTMALL!!!!!!)

so i have funny customers who get 5 roosters...... AND ASK ME WHY THEY NEVER GET POKER CARDS!!!!! 2 in a day! nuts! and..... today i sat at the counter for 90 minutes. (which means i was paid $10.50 for sitting down and doing nothing!) because the family was deciding what phone to get and they had all the diff brand promoters around them. so i just sat there doing nothing. and in the end, they bought nothing. ha ha ha. waste of my time. as we all say.. "wahlao. buying benz?"

oh no so many people are going to diff shops!
i am going to miss everyone!

tasha on the carousel @ paragon. the ride cost like 2 bucks. so once we inserted the coins, we have all the irritating kids rushing up on the ride that WE paid for. one of the boys damn daring, tried to push kyra off her horse. !!!! damn daring. i bought the girls a barbie fisherprice mangadoodle today. its damn cute! and i want one too! 

you know how you always dont fill out the date part in your warranty card because you want to prolong your warranty? welll............. stop it doode. its all in the computer. ha ha ha.

is it me or is it very irritating to have people coming into the lifts when all you want to do is hurry get down to ground level and run for your bus? as i live on the 28th storey.. almost every morning i am a grouch even before i reach ground level. the lift can stop at like 24th, 22nd, 17th, and 8th. its so fucking irritating! and its even worst if you have familes who are SO irritating and ask u to wait while their husbands lock the gate. fuck?

anyway my stupid memory card got corrupted. and i dont even have a single porn video/pic in it lah. wahlao! okay thats not the reason why it will get corrupted but i really dont know. agh. so now i have to live with a memorycard-less phone for the next 2 weeks. anyway i was already thinking of getting a 256mb memory card so i guess its a good time. but but but........ all my videos, pictures and tones. DAMMIT... GROWLS. everyone who has taken tones from me, send them back to me soon when i get my mmc card into my stupid phone.

went to town today with my sis, the girls, my mom and my aunt. gosh. the girls are so so so naughty. they run around everywhere. and all. so tiring! and we didnt even manage to buy their shoes. i didnt know it can be so hard trying to look for kids shoes. saw leong today. he looks more and more like jackycheung. ha ha ha. saw grace and emily too. and we were all talking about them before we saw them. long life. my sister bought 3 mango tops and i bought none. wanted to buy this damn nice one but my mom insisted that it is too low and that i will have to wear a tube with it if i really want to get it. which is damn bad. cos it will spoil the whole look of it. so anyway my sister was very nice. she said i could go to the mango at suntec and choose what i want and just reserve it under my name then she will go and pay for me. yayy! its quite funny. my sister and i have been buying gifts for each other.

my mom said she will be happier if danny is back for cny.
i think so too. sigh. i just want my mom to be happpppy!
but on the other hand, i had a good supper and a walk home with my mom. been ages since ive spent time with her since ive started working at m1. its either im in school, im out, or im working. so yahh, :)

you know whats the most irritating thing that can happen after i just spent the last 2 hours doing my school work?

my phone fucking died on me.
yes my fucking new phone with all the stupid senseless useless functions.

the phone cant read the bloody memory card.
HOW CAN THAT HAPPEN................... and i have so many pictures and nice tones in my memory. and now you're telling me my phone cant read the fucking memory card?

AGHHHHH.
i am so irritated i am not going to school tomorrow.

the ditzys gone fishing! 

yayyy i am going shopping with my mom and my sister tomorrow! :)
together with the girls, and my favourite aunty! yayy!
we are going shoe shopping for the girls!!! (i still think all a child needs, is a basic prada maryjane. it will SO match with everything.)

just got home from the errr, playground. ha ha ha.

thank goodness there wasnt many people in zouk tonight.
happy birthday once again christina. :)

today the ditzys went to this place in hillview that had a very nice environment. its called.. gone fishing? i think. ha.

okayy. bed time!

kyra wong li ann, natasha wong ling. i love. :) 

presenting, the ditzys. the self indulgent, the super insensitive, and the super emo. 

decided to give myself a lil treat so i went stationery shopping!! and also toiletries shopping at watsons!! now i feel ohsogearedup to start doing my school work! :) yayy!

i love my ditzys. :) and i love my sister.
cos they send me nice lovely emails. heh.

today i saw my cute butch and cute guy in school.
L plate L plate.

"they say love is blind."

im not colorblind. im simply blind.

ive been having a damn bad cough for the past 2 weeks.
no, actually ive been having a bad cough since about 2 months ago.
but then, i only cough when im sleeping.
and now, day and night im coughing. *cough cough cough.*
and sometimes, its one of those coughs whereby you feel like you wanna puke?

you know, its one of those periods where you really dont know what you're doing with your life and you feel so alone in this big big world. and then you wonder what you're living for.. and will you actually make a difference?

did i tell you that i have really long hair now? or rather, i am amazed at its length. i havent had long hair in ages!! actually its not really long. its just short shoulder length. but alot of difference from my haircuts last year.

and i cant believe im turning NINETEEN this year. gosh. (yes, although i am only 18 yrs and 24 days old)

and no, i do not have rebonded hair. that is such an off question. i dont even have straight.

i think i want to go L plate already. ha ha ha ha.

i am a very lazy girl. i dont do my homework.

chinese new year is coming. in about 2 weeks time? and i dont even know whether im having a reunion dinner this year. the tension. gosh. i loved 2002's reunion dinner. everyone was present.

AND... i havent even gone chinesenewyear clothes shopping yet. but actually come to think of it, i really dont need to shop anymore. sad to say, i havent even found time (or rather, blame it on my laziness) to pack and put away my xmas and birthday gifts yet. they are all still in their packages sitting in my room.

i'd rather blog than do my i/d homework. growls. bloggg.

one thing that ive been missing out on, sleep. i miss those days whereby i sleep till 3plus in the afternoon.. wake up to phonecalls.. get ready.. go out.. come home.. go online.. sleep at 3plus.. wake up 12 hours later and do the same thing.

i cant wait till end march.

i think i need to start remembering people by their faces. instead of the clothes they were wearing when i knew them. and oh yah remembering their names would help too. to avoid em-breast-ing moments.

i went to chinablack for the first time today. (the other time wasnt counted, cos i was.. err quite high from rouge) the crowd was so so so bad.

was supposed to go to mdmwong for ziqin's birthday party but everyone decided to go to devils instead. but when we went to devils, we realised that the crowd was so old, we went to chinablack. went with err.. denise elin wai cat emmett edmund and iforgothisname. haha.

ANNND. when we were at the dancefloor with the horrible music and horrible crowd, there was a fight. hahaha. quite funny. flying bottles and all. lights on. bouncers. people shouting. people getting injured. quite scary actually cos one of the bottles actually almost landed on us but we all went down. ha.

now i am very sleepy, and im gonna wake up in 3 hours time.. yipee! i hope everyone doesnt go to m1 tomorrow.

the ride home in the toyota was quite scary. emmett was driving with ONE hand. it looks scary. we went from town to kimseng.. from kimseng to bugis.. from bugis to changi airport (???!!!!) and then from there to bukitpanjang. and i slept most of the way. ha.

ogayyy. ciao.

eve drove me home today!!! from the interchange!! haha.
and i drove around the interchange. oh gosh i love turning. lol.

work today was quite bad. i wanted to bitch slap everyone lah. bah. but as usual after work was nice. nice, simple and cosy. :) we love rides home.

work with the new manager is a littttttllllleeee bit stressful. i dont know how long i can last doode. i hope all the nice nice people stay. :(

my cough is getting damn bad. and it has been going on for about the past 2 months. those that slept with me (no no, in the same room as me) would have suffered hell cos when i sleep, i cough non stop. i think its the cigs. bah.

i really should stop slacking in my school work.

but but but...... aiyah. i dont know either.

yayyy the girls are here tonight!! but by the time i got home, they were both sleeping. i shall make the effort and wake up early tomorrow so that i can spend some time with them.

should i sign on for another two years with singnet broadband cos now they're giving away the panasonic sound system. its super attractive lah. either that or a canon powershot a400. but i already have a digital camera so i really dont need another one. and i could really do with a sound system in my room. but the problem is... i dont even have a television in my room. so why do i even need a sound system? actually getting a television isnt the problem. i think the problem is my room is too small to actually put a sound system and a television. i should be contented with the computer, phone and bose set in my room. so...... i should be thankful already right? but....... the panasonic soundsystem is so freaking attractive. aghhh. and it will be really stupid if i put the sound system, computer, television and hi-fi alllllll on the same table right?

on another note, i am quite pissed. not sure with what also. i just spent the last 2 hours designing a poster for m1. its some intershop competition thingy and i dont even know why im doing it. since im not a full time staff. anyway im nice. so.. ha.

i cannot wait for end-march. but please... dont lie to us again?

AGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.............


fuck off!

im 18. not 8.

gosh today i drove again.
i did a three point turn.
i did parking, both head in and reverse.
and i did a turn... goshh!

i can just go straight and apply for driving test already lah!
hahahha.

okay i am quite screwed. very infact. i dont like sch. :(

on another note, i saw my _______(insert post) manager today with this girl that he was rumoured to have an affair with. everyone knows about it. and he is married, with a daughter. so hearing about it and seeing it.. has quite alot of difference actually. it makes me wonder why men stray. bastards.

i seriously should stop shopping.
as my sister says, i have everything i need.. except money cos i cant save.

i cannot wait for march!!! or rather the end of march!!! :) cos danny might be coming back for a short holiday!!! goshhh!

last night beks drove me to the haunted house at hillview. damnn scary. bahh. the image of the slope and the big opened gate is still in my mind.

im so broke. bah.

if we are all in search of our identity..

whats your identity?
and what is the identity that i am searching for?

but in turn, what is the identity that we are portraying to the world?
and does it really matter?

do you create your own identity.. or do you allow your identity to be created by the world?

just got home! and ive still got homework uncompleted. dammit.

went to town.. wanted to shop but didnt buy much. ONLY A PAIR OF shoes. and it was on sale! on saleeee!!!! hahah. birks ARE essentials what right? ooo and im getting another green pair at staff discount. :) shite whatever happened to my only one pair a month. okayyy for the month of feb no shoes. and i didnt even buy the very nice 2 tops... i am so proud of myself.

watched meet the fockers with cat and denise. damn funny. martha focker. asss HoooooooOOOo.

and i have to wake up in about 6 hours time. and im working tomorrow. BAH

round and round and round. beks went round and round and she didnt let me get off the car!!!

we went up to the multistorey carpark and the view of the stars were gorgeous! wooo. AND I DROVE!!!! OH THE EXCITEMENT! i am so eager to go learn driving now. then i can start going D and R and P... and let my knees rub against the joystick. HAHA.

im at home with bev now and we are going to do our school work! wheee!

woke up to a veryy long sms from my sister that made me teared.
jiejie always told me last year, 18 this year already.. cannot always be such a crybaby and things cant always be going my way.

i really dont know what things would be like if i didnt have my sister.

i thought i "woke up". but i guess i was wrong. the realisation that you dont reply my email, and the fact that you dont reply my sms-es. fuck. and i just HAD to hear -naughty girl::beyonce- in nydc just now. now i am like some fucking love sick bitch who gets all ohsoupset whenever i hear a song. but hey its not easy. 16/17th december03, the last time i stayed over at your place.. you kept playing the beyonce cd on your verycool muji cd player. naughty girl was the song i heard whenever we're in the house.. in the living room.. etc etc. and it sucks that 1 year down the road, they are still playing that freaking song. i am such a wuss.

i dont even know what i am doing anymore.
so anyway the girls came over just now and they kinda made my day. tasha is becoming such a drama girl. her actions and the things she say. kyra is showing her true self at the mere age of 2. she is so cheeky and playful. and she knows no fear. its only her second week of playgroup and she has become so outspoken. had a short talk with my sister. i guess i really should count my blessings and stop being such a whiner.

i have my parents with me.
i have 3 elder siblings who loves me. (i would like to think so!) oh wait, maybe it should be 4.. including my brotherinlaw.
i have almost everything i want/need.
i have a very cool extended family. mom's side.
i have enough shoes.
i have friends and i make them go thru my horrid mood swings.
i have friends that can actually tolerate my mood swings.
i have 2 very beautiful nieces who amazes me each time i see them.
i have a very comfortable bed.
i have a shelter. and i am not suffering from hunger or the tsunami.
i am alive and i eat well. (perhaps sometimes too well)
i have a good paying part time job.
i have nice classmates who make me laugh.
i have a God that i can turn to, no matter what happens.
i have a sister that told me outrightly that i am very dense, just because i asked her.. "jie, do i put the apple juice in the fridge with or without the plastic bag?"
i have a mom that loves me so much.. so so much.
i am healthy.
i dont have the guts to kill myself.

kor, i would really appreciate it if you could actually remember that you have a family back here in singapore.

i think i need a haircut. haircuts always make me happy. but then again, its only part time happiness. maybe if i cut my hair realllly short, it will make me happy for a longer period. say maybe 5 mins more.

if i continue to be this upset and feel so screwed till sunday..... something tells me i will blow my pay on essentials that really arent essentials.

i hate the whole employer's cpf thing.
its damn stupid lah... they just ate away my money. with that money, i can buy my new specs AND a new handphone casing. BUT NO!!! the government has to take away my money. they're forcing me to save money for my old age! when i just turned 18 two freaking weeks ago only!!

oh yah this reminds me i have to go do my nomination form for the cpf thing. so that if i should die anytime soon.. my money (yes, the money that can buy my new specs AND new handphone casing) will not go to the charity but to someone that i chose. i think i can choose up to three people. and divide them in whatever percentage i want. this is so taxing. its like drawing up a will or something. i dont know who to nominate. i think i better fill in the form soon enough incase i die anytime soon. who knows i might get into an accident.. or maybe one day go nuts and finally have the guts to kill myself.. or maybe i will choke to death while eating tauhuey or something. life is unpredictable what yes?

oh yah i just saw my dream handphone cover. actually its not really my dream handphone cover. just that the black/red cover was really in demand. actually it still is. but all the stocks that come into the shop are mostly black/brown and silver/grey. even if there is stocks for black/red.. its super limited. so although i thought the silver/grey one is absoutely gorgeous, i took the black/red one because no one in the shop had it, and also cos i thought i wont be using a handphone pouch and yadayada so i thought black/red would be a wiser choice. but NO.. now i desperately want the silver/grey one. and i FINALLY found the original one selling at bukitpanjangplaza ohsohappening. YAYYY!!! the joy! and my mom likes the specs that i like! the furla one! YAYYY!! maybe i can con her into buying me another pair. hahahA. okie im kidding.

blog blog blog bloggggg. it feels good to type. anddddd. my mom is cooking! gosh, it has been ages since i last ate home cooked food! YAYYY!! and............. i just got my pay!!! YAYYY!!!. (although i am still very sore about the stupid cpf. can i request for no cpf like how i did in club21 PWWWEEEAASSSEEE?) and i am gonna spend my money WISELY. hahaha. yesss. how wise.

so i spent like the whole of last month reminding myself to go and get blank cds so that i can back up my files in my computer. only to realise that i still have a box of black cds at home.. my mom is the best. she knows where i keep everything. even though its in my room. eyy that sounds abit risky. but so far she hasnt found my cigs so i guess im safe. im trying to convince myself that i do NOT need an ipod and that it is just a waste of money. which is true what right? i sleep on buses. and i dont listen to any discman or md player or whatsoever. so there really isnt a need to get an ipod what right? although the u2 edition would really match my phone very well. and even the normal version can match my soon to be new mobile casing. yes? haha. but....... a bang&olufsen earphones would really match the ipod. yes? and besides bang&olufsen has such good sound system. i reckon its even better than bose. (sleeker and alot prettier too!)

okieee! i cant wait for the girls to come! :)

i love natasha wong ling and kyra wong li ann. and i am so glad that i am seeing them tonight. my all time favourite girls.

daphne, you will NOT blow your pay this sunday.
you will spend it wisely. (and NO a gucci hp strap isnt wise. its downright stupid. neither is more clothes wise. neither is a new camera wise. neither is a pair of new specs wise. neither is another pair of birks wise. neither is more new bags wise. neither is more new shoes wise, no matter how you try to convince yourself that they are BASICS and they will match with everything in your wardrobe cos you know you're just lying to yourself.)

i am going to do what i love the most on sunday. i am going to go shopping for my family! buy nice things for everyone! :) its something that ive always loved to do. makes me feel super good after that. feels even better than me buying 5 pairs of shoes at one go.

today at work....
there was this boy that wanted to trade in his t610. but there was a problem with his charger. or maybe his phone. either one was loose. so i went to randy and said.. "randy, there's a problem with this head. when you insert it.. its damn loose and the phone doesnt react."... and then everyone started laughing in the storeroom.

i just realised how childish and selfish i have been in the past year over the whole issue of you leaving. i am only an eighteen (then i was seventeen) year old girl and i guess all i thought about was me and the family. mainly me. and the whole issue of you, leaving me. leaving us.

you're already mature and wise enough to make the decision to leave. perhaps it was for selfish reasons (or rather in my selfish point of view.).. but i guess you had your own reasons. reasons that i havent been able to face, and accept. perhaps its because i grew up being the youngest. and ive always had things going my way. so when i knew that you were leaving, i couldnt accept the fact. at the back of my mind, ive always wished that one day before xmas03, you will realise what a mistake you've made.. but then again, i am calling this a mistake in my point of view. what do i know, yes?

i should have seen it coming. when you shifted out back in 2000. all the time i had with you then was birthday dinners. mainly in july (mom's and jie's.) and december (dad's and mine.).. also not forgetting mother's day dinner. the rest of the time i had with you was during my march/june/sept/dec holidays when you will bring me out to town.. because of the amount of time not spent with me, you pampered me whenever you bring me out. buying things for me.. etc etc. you were somehow always there because you would be the first (okay, maybe second.. after jie) person i would call whenever something happened at home. and you are still there for me even though you're far away in newyork. (most of the time) you will answer the phone and assure me things are gonna be okay. even though things arent really gonna be okay. and things arent okay yet. (yet, because i like to live in hope)

now, all i can say is.. i wish you joy in newyork. count your blessings. as long as you're happy. we all miss you dearly over here in singapore. and i really hope that you will be back for chinese new year. never will i pass a family event and not think of you. never will i not remember you. remember that. i will remember you as the one who created such fantastic posters. i will remember you as the one who used to bring me down for walks. i will remember you as the one who gave me pep talks when i get into trouble, only to result in me laughing and crying at the same time. i will remember you for asking me countless times.. so girl, lesbian yet? i will remember you for countless shopping trips you brought me to. i will remember you for telling me that wearing giordano clothes will give me rashes and wearing reef slippers will give me blisters. i will remember the walks to eastcoast and you laughing at me over all the things i do. i will remember you for being you. cos i love you and you've been so patient, loving and giving towards me in the past 18 years and 13 days.

i didnt know an ipod mini was so tiny till i saw it at bestdenki at gwc with the gwc girl today!

thank you beks, gwcgirl for the lovely jacket. :) now we have matching jackets!

i have the most disgusting art theory lecturer. i prolly rolled my eyes 328579 times today during art theory.

sd, fuck you.

just got home not too long ago from the biggest ktv room ive ever seen.
i thought such rooms were things you only see in movies!!

it was a farewell party for our store manager.. cos there's a shuffle in the management staff.. quite funny. "tuo yi tuo yi".."body orgy".."bing bang AHHH"..the dancing and the laughing.

i was quite moody in the start. growls. if only mistakes can be undone. yes? hate the way im feeling. sucky. blarghs. anyway before i went to the ohsofunny party of jan'05.. cain came over to my place to help me install freehand10 and directorMX. both a little too hard for me to understand! and before that.. i met up with my partnerincrime in town. gosh i missed her so much i even shamelessly noted down ALL my offdays in her phone just so that we can plan when to go out.

eyyy its wednesday and i feel like mambo-ing!!

i think its just the effects of too much beer in me.

i saw the nicest ever furla specs. should i should i? its damn nice.

gosh. i dont know how am i gonna survive school tomorrow with beer still in my system.. and all the funny moments that happened earlier on.

baobao and ai ren.... haha. the straw thing the straw thingy. ooo. 

the men... guess who is mister hotassforhisage? lol 

ivan just got married 2 weeks back... and here he is, the lucky men with all the girls wanting to touch him. hahaha. kidding. 

my smoking buddy!!!! 

my khaki. we're both temp and we love each other. haha. 

pat, jace and i.. trying a little too hard. heh 

it took us four times to get the perfect nice shot. haha. darren calls me a bitch. i call him fat ass. 

ivan, jace, xiuli, me and darren. btw, darren was putting his bigfatass on me and no he isnt light at all!! 

and another one we all go........ eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeyyyyyyyyeeeeeeaaa 

all the booze... and the m1 westmall people.. allan and i were trying to squeeeeze ivan to death. 

remember, it is sin to know what you ought to do and then not do it. -james 4:17

i just realised something. i am very very fat.
i mean yah i was told that i am becoming very fat many times.
but i just realised that i am really..... very fat.

my aim this year, to lose weight.

i dont like men.

i skipped school, skipped work.
went to the plaza to see a doctor. took an mc.

4 different people asked me the "are you okay" question today.

i think its the lack of sleep.

i am the best companion to ever have in a car.
all i do is say.. "go under!!.. just follow the road.."
and..... "I NEED TO PEE!!!"...."IM HUNGRYY"

thank you ditz!

i think i need a rest. i need a day to sleep in till noon.. wake up and pack my room... watch tv.. and sleep again.

it should be more than a want. only then will i desire and seek.

gosh. its been a hectic week. either im working, or im in school.

i think i desperately need time management courses.

friday night was a good one. i love my ditzys, 456, tictactoe.
and i think i cant give directions for nuts. all i say is.. "follow the road...."

today two ladies bought the vibrator phone.
it is 4 and a half inches before answering.. (A CALL)
and five inches after answering the call.....................
yes, we were measuring it in the storeroom.

LUKE 21 -signs at the end of the age.

then He said to them, "nation will rise against nation, and kingdom against kinddom. there will be great earthquakes, famines and pestilences in various places, and fearful events and great signs from heaven.................but make up your mind not to worry beforehand how you will defend yourselves. for i will give you words and wisdom that none of your adversaries will be able to resist or contradict.....all men will hate you because of me. but not a hair of your head will perish. by standing firm you will gain life.........there will be signs in the sun, moon and stars. on the earth, nations will be in anguish and perplexity at the roaring and tossing of the sea. men will faint from terror, apprehensive of what is coming on the world, for the heavenly bodies will be shaken.....when these things begin to take place, stand up and lift up your heads because your redemption is drawing near.............................be careful, or your hearts wil be weighed down with dissipation, drunkenness and the anxieties of life, and that day will close on you unexpectedly like a trap. for it will come upon all those who live on the face of the whole earth. be always on the watch, and pray that you may be able to escape all that is about to happen, and that you may be able to stand before the son of man"

i will not blow my next paycheque in 1 week.
i will not blow me next paycheque in 1 week.
i will not blow my next paycheque in 1 week.
i will not blow me next paycheque in 1 week.
i will not blow my next paycheque in 1 week.

i will....... start saving money. im serious.

i just packed all my art stuff that has been lying on the table for the past 2 months. WHERE IS MY LAYOUT PAPER?!!!!!!! growls. i think i found almost everything BUT the LAYOUT PAD! and i need it!! dammit. i think it is prolly still in some of my school bag that is probably stuck somewhere between the pile of bags.

oh yah the 7280 is out....... the vibrator phone. i was using it the other day. damn hard to use. i guess its a matter of getting used to..

every guy wants a 3g phone.
i want my O2mini!!! that i can take my stylus out and tic tic tac taccc.

i suddenly feel so newyear-ish!
i just want to be happy this year. HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY.

my table is STILL in a mess.

i just had my mom's superduper yummy hainanese chicken rice. ive been eating alot lately. and ive been putting on weight. shite this is bad. by the time i turn 19 i think i will prolly be like 283572895 kgs already lah.

i want to buy the maharishi pants.......... please santa........

school ended early! and i think i have a very chee ko art theory teacher. ewww.

i saw my mister ohsocute. ohsocute ohsohot. hahah.

i am going to be a good girl and pack my room today. and sleep early. cos ive got no school tomorrow and im working. dammit! i am going to finish my work on time and not procrastinate. i will start doing some of my work.

and i really want an ipod. actually i dont need an ipod. i just want one. and i want the u2 edition. woohooo. and i still want my gucci handphone strap. i dont need a handphone strap. i just want a gucci one. andd. i still want my christiandior wallet. i dont need another wallet. i just want the gwenstefani one.

i should stop wanting when people are suffering from the tidal wave thingy. m1 customers do u know u can sms DONATE to 8880 (I THINK... not very sure.) to donate 10 bucks to the tidal wave thingy. and no admin fee will be charged. so all ten bucks will go to them.

tasha, me, and my third birthday cake for last year! goshhh! 18 candles. and oh yah that isnt a green ciggie. i was asked to blow the candles from the straw.. standing a distance away from the cake. 

almost everyone from my mom's side. i love i love i love. about 10 are missing though. 

my thin sister, my even thinner mom.. and their very fat sister/daughter. my pillars of support and strength. 

my very thin and pretty sister and me.. dont ask what happened to me doode.. and oh yah she is a mother of two! 

melvinkorkor and i. my cousin who nags at me and has friends who nags at me..... 

the birthday lunch at breko's. only cos i had a voucher that expires in december. shit i look damn fat.  

the love the love, we're spreading the love. 

cain should call himself a lucky many because he was sitting inbetween the 2 birthday girls in the errr.. bathtub. 

we share the same birthday and we are quite alike in many ways! thats my amy mommy and i love her so. oooo and yes we were at scarlet hotel. the beauty. 

jer and i at the lobby of hotel81 (chinatown)... feeling feeling, spreading the loveeeeEee.  

thank youu for trying to cheer me up!!!